do you know how much?
october 2, 2009

so much ...

i've tried to write this all out for many months now, and at 4 a.m. tonight ... i tell myself that i'll just try again tomorrow. at some point it's just going to have to stop ... it will all just have to fall out. and at some point i'll be able to say it better

but better does me no good now
so here you go:

i miss you
and only you

... sigh