it's not real
march 10, 2009

there are times at night, when i'm lying in bed, that i'm scared to close my eyes
fearing what my dreams might bring
i've been staying up until almost 4 the past few nights
and it's not good for me, i know.
but sometimes dreams can feel so real

my mind delves into the depths of my heart looking
for what my heart's been hiding
and it finds you.

in an instant, i'm thrust into feelings of
complete vulnerability
the lows feel so low
and the highs disappear upon waking
knowing it wasn't real

sometimes i feel like i'm just a bad dream
that someone wants to wake from